Within

How hard is it to speak?
How hard is it to let it all out?
I never thought i would have  problems
in facing my woes and finding the solutions.
Now i just need some time alone
to find out what it is that hurts most.
I don't want to keep it inside me,
its burning, its scratching, its leaving marks.
I don't want your pity,
I'm not weak in this suffering.
This pain is my reminder of memories
that are the best i ever had and are my treasure.
So its not hard to speak,
its not hard to let it all out,
but when the hurt is the happiness
its my strength to keep the pain
to live my memories again.

BENEATH

Beneath the surface
a swirling madness
Beneath the surface
the good and the bad
Beneath the surface
nothing is new
Beneath the surface
I live alone
Beneath the surface
I see the world
Beneath the surface
I exist