ACHE

There is an ache inside me, unknown and new, not within my grasp.

It throbs and it twists, its unnerving, the cause remains unknown.

It flares when there is distance, twitches to burn and consume.

Overwhelming yet precious, at once alien and a part of me.

The heat is over bearing,  I'm drowning without a reason.

It is suffocating, your breath is fresh and sweet, desirable.

It whimpers when you say goodbye, asks me to hold on tight.

The ache returns as I see you leave, it burns viciously now.

It calls to you for relief, as ambrosia to its starvation.

With your arms around me, it throbs dully, begging for an eternity.

It craves, its selfish, is it too bold of me to ask you to stay?

Soothe it with your gentle touch, can I ask you to be my crutch?

Play a soft hand down the side, it feels shy as if trying to hide.

But soon it soars with delight, the fear gone it shines so bright.

Your touch, your embrace is all it asks; in your glory it basks.

Its happy now but for how long? I need you here by my side, to you can I belong?

B l u e

B l u e  i s  a l l  I  s e e

a b o v e  a n d  b e y o n d  m e.

B l u e  i s  a l l  I  f e e l

w i t h i n  a n d  a r o u n d  m e.

D e e p e r  a n d  d e e p e r  i t  s l i t h e r s

u n t i l  a l l  i s  l o s t , a l l  i s  c o n s u m e d.

E s c a p e  t h i s  c o n f i n e m e n t?

I t ' s  a n  e s c a p e  f r o m  t h e  o u t s i d e  c o n s t r a i n t s.

A  f i g h t  f o r  c o n t r o l , a  l o s t  b a t t l e

f i n d i n g  s o l a c e  i n  s o l i t a r y.

L a p p i n g  w a v e s  d r a g g i n g  m e  d o w n

p u l l i n g  m e  a p a r t , t h r o w i n g  m e  a w a y.

A l l  s t r i n g s  s n i p e d  o n e  b y  o n e

t h e  b l u e  i s  a l l  e n c o m p a s s i n g.

C r a s h i n g  t h r o u g h  t h e  s u r f a c e

I  f i n d  a  b r e a t h  o f  f r e s h  a i r.

T h e  c a l m  h a s  v a n i s h ed

i t s  b a c k  t o  t h e  m i n d l e s s  c h a o s.

I  s i n k  a g a i n  t o  f e e l  t h e  f r e e d o m

r e l i n q u i s h  e v e r y t h i n g.

T h e  b l u e  i s  s t i l l  i s  h e r e

a s  m u c h  a b o v e  a s  b e l o w , o u t  o f  r e a c h.

B l u e  i s  a l l  I  s e e  a g a i n

a b o v e  a n d  b e y o n d  m e  f o r e v e r.

B l u e  i s  a l l  I  f e e l  t o d a y

w i t h i n  a r o u n d  m e , a l w a y s  s t a y i n g  t h e  s a m e.  

Moment

Wait, still alive, it’s beating

Move, its racing, its beating

Over, finished, no more beating

WHY?

I lie in the darkness

with no hope or light

The pain that blinds me

tells me I still have to fight

You find my pieces every time

and glue them together

You hold every bit every fragment

emanating the strength I need

Why do you stay?

Like I'm the one who matters.

Why do you pray?

When everything has shattered.

I'm broken and I bleed

I have nothing to offer

Things have been shifting

and it feels wrong, too wrong

Still I see you

on your knees beside me

Envelope me in your grace

you never let me fade

Why do you stay?

Like I'm the one that matters.

Why do you pray?

When everything has shattered?

S E N S E S

I taste you, I taste the acid that bleeds from your veins.
I see you, I see the ripple of a past I want to forget.
I hear you, I hear every truth disguised in lies.
I smell you, I smell the scent of betrayal.
I feel you, I feel the love that you've lost forever.