Why

I know I hurt you, I wasn't the best person

but you also know that I never wanted to

You knew me...at least I thought so

but you turned ur back on me when I wanted you to understand

I repented for my mistakes, I cried for forgiveness

but you didn't look back

I gave you time to hate me

I gave me time to forget you

Now all I want is to be friends

to end any hard feeling between us

Still I see you not reacting...

I never hear you try to move on

Do I have to be sorry all my life

Do i have to feel guilty forever

maybe the mistake was mine

but you weren't stain free too

I was also hurt I was also angry

I was also waiting for an apology....

LOVE

When in love
Do not become the moon.
If you can,
Come as the sun.
I'll take its heat
And light up the dark forest.


When in love,
Do not become the river.
If you can,
Come as the flood.
I'll carry its passion
And break the dams of despair...


When in love,
Do not become a bird.
If you can,
Come as the storm.
I'll borrow its force
And destroy the palace of sin.


The moon,
The river,
The flower,
The stars,
The birds-
We can look for them later.


But today,
In the darkness,
The last battle is yet to be fought.
What we need now in our hovel
Is--Fire!


By - Murari Mukhopadhyay

CHANCE or DESTINY

 few days back i saw this movie called serendipity....i don't know if its famous or not but it did make me think....and i'm not talking about the usual shallow thinking but the more life altering thinking....so i got into thinking about the story of our lives.....is it really ourselves that write it??? have any one ever thought about the road that our life takes...the decisions that we make...are we sure it is actually us doing it or the almighty-god-the alma mater that have written our stories and we are just walking and following the already chosen path for us...i know many people would disagree saying we are the one making the decisions and its us who make our own path.....but how can you be sure that what you decide wasn't already known to that invisible power to which we all obeisance to????  i'm an agnostic : i'm not sure if god exist....n to be true i'm on the path of being an atheist....still there things like this movie which force me to reconsider my beliefs.....to re think if what i believe is what is true????

How Am I ???

The one fact that seems quite universal to me is that you learn from your mistakes.I wont say i'm really good at that but i try. Doesn't it seem a little odd that what we do wrong is exactly what teaches how to do the right thing????? How do you differentiate between right and wrong???? Do you consider how it affects people around you or how it effects you??? Is what we think always the right thing or should we always consider what others think??? I believe that making decisions is the most difficult thing that anyone has to do - why because they not only have to try and make the right decision but also to make sure that their decision does not hurt someone. Have you ever made such a decisions???? For as far as i can remember i have never been in a situation where my decision may have hurt someone so i'm kind of grateful for that. 
                         One thing more that is very hard, as i believe is, criticism. People may try to project as if criticism helps them be a better person and they take it in a positive way, i'm not refuting the fact that it helps but i'm pretty sure that it isn't easy to bear hearing your weakness...at least for me it isn't. I was never good at taking criticism....maybe the reason behind it is that for the most part of my life till now i have been little criticized.....apart from the recent few years. I'm not saying that i hate criticism, like everyone else i try take it a positive way.....but as i said its difficult....especially with my temper and crazy theories that i make up as soon as something gets in my mind. So over the past few years i have found out that i'm short tempered, i'm a irrational in thinking and i don't always consider how my "verbal" thoughts can affect someone. But i am proud of one thing that along with getting upset, crying and raging at these faults of mine i have some how reigned them in.....at least i think so. 
      I believe that is the lesson of all this that i have written....not matter how bad you may feel when someone criticizes you, you have to prove that those faults are not what you are....that you are capable of something better.....to be a better person....to make right decisions.....to work on your weakness and one day make them disappear and i mean it literally.

After class as I walked down to the metro station I passed a dog....being a dog lover I instinctively called out to.When i did this i never thought that this dog will follow me all the way to the station. He crossed the road with full heavy traffic, faced other dogs barking at him and waited for me if I lagged behind. 

Doesn't this dog resemble the people we call friends. We call out to them and they follow us no matter where we go. They cross all barriers to be with us, they face every problem to help us and they wait for us if we lag behind or choose the wrong way. They care for us and are the best things in our life. 

The other thing that this incident made me realize was that everybody needs a little love and a sense of being needed. No one wants to be alone and unwanted. When you see a new person in an unfriendly environment what do you do? Try talking to that person and making him/her comfortable rite. We do this because this is what we desire too when we are in a new place. I call this making friends :-)

So to conclude I would like to say that this article is dedicated to friends that are already in my life and those who I'm yet to find. You make my life beautiful. THANK YOU

The world peeks through a sheet of fog
dew on the grass ad chill in the air
Winters are here
I found my warmth by your side
I miss those days when we were together
when you were all I wanted
when you were always there
Winters are here and so are the memories
My sun is not by my side
I'm cold....I'm alone

Move on

We all have memories that binds us to one moment in time. We live in the belief that if we try hard enough that time will come back because it was good. Their nothing bad in hoping so but we forget that the time that has gone will never come back.....what we can actually do is to make new memories...memories that will help us move on.
Life never remains uniform, if it is good today it maybe better or worse tomorrow,you can never know. This is the best things about life....we always have something new to look forward to and we can do that while keeping our past memories with us....what is important is that we don't let those memories hinder our way to the future.


In the past few days I've been trying hard to bring back a sweet memory of mine but now I've realized that that time cannot and will not come back...all I can do is to bring something new to me.So I've decided to let go of the past and Move On...something that everyone of us have to do at some point of our lives. We just have to remember that no matter what or how today is tomorrow will be better if we believe it to be.....even if it is not what we expect it will change because another tomorrow is coming right behind it.

Women Reservation

For centuries women have been subjected to discrimination justified by either their physical or mental inferiority......but we all know that women are neither physically weak or mentally inferior to men. Over the years now women have proved that when given the opportunity they can be better than men in any field.

                                        Starting mid 20th century women empowerment have taken a new and powerful turn.......women have come up protesting against the inequality of their situations. In the recent years women reservation in legislative assemblies and other forms of administration is being seen as a way of empowering them.....however, their are many women groups and other people who believe that reservation is just discrimination under a veil....by giving separate bogeys to women the government is just proving that they are weak and need protection. According to them this will lead to segregation rather than the actual goal of equality.

                                                                          Their is another group with the belief that after decades of fighting for women rights such reservation are deserved by womankind. If people are willing to see reservations as a weakness then their also people who see it as something that is owed to women after so long a battle. The war of  women empowerment s getting bigger and bigger with more women and also men realizing the discrimination that women have to face be it in education, in their jobs or as simple as their choice of marriage partners. 

        After a lot of pondering I believe that we deserve everything that we are getting not matter how people like to criticize it.When we put in the hard work the rewards are justified.

FEELINGS

Defining out feelings is one of the toughest job in this world......u like some1, u hate sum1, ur jealous at time and at time ur worried.....sometimes ur ego comes in the way sometimes ur attitude. So how do we maintain these feelings.....the answer is we don't. We can never control what we feel or direct it one direction.....we feel what we feel. The best option that is in our hand is to try and differentiate our feelings. Love is different from like.......similarly hate is different from prejudice....each feeling has its place in our life we have to learn to express them.


          Don't judge what you feel......you may be wrong
          talk it out and then see......if your mind's following your heart
        

Within

How hard is it to speak?
How hard is it to let it all out?
I never thought i would have  problems
in facing my woes and finding the solutions.
Now i just need some time alone
to find out what it is that hurts most.
I don't want to keep it inside me,
its burning, its scratching, its leaving marks.
I don't want your pity,
I'm not weak in this suffering.
This pain is my reminder of memories
that are the best i ever had and are my treasure.
So its not hard to speak,
its not hard to let it all out,
but when the hurt is the happiness
its my strength to keep the pain
to live my memories again.

BENEATH

Beneath the surface
a swirling madness
Beneath the surface
the good and the bad
Beneath the surface
nothing is new
Beneath the surface
I live alone
Beneath the surface
I see the world
Beneath the surface
I exist