Shades OF Gray...

With the multitudes of people that we encounter throughout our life none can be categorized as simply black or white, with black denoting the "bad" and white denoting the "good". The people nearest to us are the best example of this very true theory. Our family are the people we love the most but aren't their always those little things that we just can't seem to understand. The come our best friends, they compliment us the best, we believe them to be someone exactly like ourselves but when it comes down to a fight their always is something that bugs us, that makes them different from us. But does that mean we are 'white'? Not at all. When we sit down and think about our fights we realize our own petty mistakes and prejudices. 


                                 The same theory also apply to the people we usually don't get along with or people we simple have to hate. We may criticize them all day long, find the worst in them but we never are able to ignore that little good in them that we see, sometimes on our own and sometimes forcefully. At the end of the day no matter who we love and who we hate, we are not able to compartmentalize them into good or bad only. Their is always something in between. It is at this point that we realize that we will never find the brightest shade of white or the darkest shade of black among the people we know or the people we don't know.


All that we can conclude is that the shades of gray should be the basis of of  all our judgement's as well as our prejudices.

Why

I know I hurt you, I wasn't the best person

but you also know that I never wanted to

You knew me...at least I thought so

but you turned ur back on me when I wanted you to understand

I repented for my mistakes, I cried for forgiveness

but you didn't look back

I gave you time to hate me

I gave me time to forget you

Now all I want is to be friends

to end any hard feeling between us

Still I see you not reacting...

I never hear you try to move on

Do I have to be sorry all my life

Do i have to feel guilty forever

maybe the mistake was mine

but you weren't stain free too

I was also hurt I was also angry

I was also waiting for an apology....

LOVE

When in love
Do not become the moon.
If you can,
Come as the sun.
I'll take its heat
And light up the dark forest.


When in love,
Do not become the river.
If you can,
Come as the flood.
I'll carry its passion
And break the dams of despair...


When in love,
Do not become a bird.
If you can,
Come as the storm.
I'll borrow its force
And destroy the palace of sin.


The moon,
The river,
The flower,
The stars,
The birds-
We can look for them later.


But today,
In the darkness,
The last battle is yet to be fought.
What we need now in our hovel
Is--Fire!


By - Murari Mukhopadhyay

CHANCE or DESTINY

 few days back i saw this movie called serendipity....i don't know if its famous or not but it did make me think....and i'm not talking about the usual shallow thinking but the more life altering thinking....so i got into thinking about the story of our lives.....is it really ourselves that write it??? have any one ever thought about the road that our life takes...the decisions that we make...are we sure it is actually us doing it or the almighty-god-the alma mater that have written our stories and we are just walking and following the already chosen path for us...i know many people would disagree saying we are the one making the decisions and its us who make our own path.....but how can you be sure that what you decide wasn't already known to that invisible power to which we all obeisance to????  i'm an agnostic : i'm not sure if god exist....n to be true i'm on the path of being an atheist....still there things like this movie which force me to reconsider my beliefs.....to re think if what i believe is what is true????

How Am I ???

The one fact that seems quite universal to me is that you learn from your mistakes.I wont say i'm really good at that but i try. Doesn't it seem a little odd that what we do wrong is exactly what teaches how to do the right thing????? How do you differentiate between right and wrong???? Do you consider how it affects people around you or how it effects you??? Is what we think always the right thing or should we always consider what others think??? I believe that making decisions is the most difficult thing that anyone has to do - why because they not only have to try and make the right decision but also to make sure that their decision does not hurt someone. Have you ever made such a decisions???? For as far as i can remember i have never been in a situation where my decision may have hurt someone so i'm kind of grateful for that. 
                         One thing more that is very hard, as i believe is, criticism. People may try to project as if criticism helps them be a better person and they take it in a positive way, i'm not refuting the fact that it helps but i'm pretty sure that it isn't easy to bear hearing your weakness...at least for me it isn't. I was never good at taking criticism....maybe the reason behind it is that for the most part of my life till now i have been little criticized.....apart from the recent few years. I'm not saying that i hate criticism, like everyone else i try take it a positive way.....but as i said its difficult....especially with my temper and crazy theories that i make up as soon as something gets in my mind. So over the past few years i have found out that i'm short tempered, i'm a irrational in thinking and i don't always consider how my "verbal" thoughts can affect someone. But i am proud of one thing that along with getting upset, crying and raging at these faults of mine i have some how reigned them in.....at least i think so. 
      I believe that is the lesson of all this that i have written....not matter how bad you may feel when someone criticizes you, you have to prove that those faults are not what you are....that you are capable of something better.....to be a better person....to make right decisions.....to work on your weakness and one day make them disappear and i mean it literally.